5 Reasons I Smile

The ultimate goal of this blog is to spread awareness and show how beautiful life can be. We have four amazing daughters. Our youngest was born with Down syndrome. If just one person stops here and leaves with a different, better perspective about Down syndrome, then it is worth it. Regardless, I have 5 Reasons to Smile!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

feeling tired

I have been writing, but I can't seem to finish. When I open my blog, it is still bitter-sweet for me. I am writing and sharing because of one extra little thing. To be honest, sometimes I just want to pretend it doesn't exist. Down syndrome. It is not a huge part of our life, but it's part of it. I wonder where I really am with acceptance, because even though 96% of the time I embrace my life (and I feel so fortunate, I really do)....every once in awhile I just wish she didn't have Down syndrome. I feel bad just saying that, like it's not OK for me to feel that way. But right at this moment, that is what I am feeling.
I am also feeling tired! May is full of some extra special days for us.....celebrating mamas, life and love. I was planning on sharing, but I am worn out, like her.............

Just uploading those pictures made me smile. That feeling I had a few minutes ago, it's gone. However, I'm still tired, maybe I can share the exciting stuff tomorrow. :)


  1. I can't speak for everyone, but I know I still have my days where I wonder what our life would be like without Down Syndrome in it. But I just have to make myself snap out of it because it IS in it. And I'm tired too! ;) Have a great weekend. Maybe try and get a nap in!

  2. I have a feeling we are all tired! There is a lot of "extra" stuff that comes along with Down syndrome (especially when medical stuff comes along like for little Ella Grace and Presley right now)... the good thing is that we all can get through it and who would have ever known we could get through it "together"... I never would have imagined there was a whole "blog world" of friends out there before Whitney!!! Hope you can catch a nap this weekend :) (probably wishful thinking...)
    Hang in there!!!

  3. It's OK to feel whatever you feel... hopefully the negative feelings don't last too long, though. Maybe more people have those same feelings but don't post them. For me, this is just "what it is..." and there's no changing the fact that our kids have Ds, so I guess I just move on and not think about it too much at all. Of course, when kids get sick or have medical issues related to Ds, it makes me sad, but I'm also grateful for all the awesome people I've met as a result of that Dx... YOU INCLUDED! We would never have had a chance to meet otherwise :-) {{{HUGS}}}

  4. Awwww, look at her all curled up! SO cute!